the passing of a friend

A few days before my last exam for the semester when I was about to go for dinner, I received a text message from mone that my high school friend, lyn si had passed away. The fact didn’t sink in yet when I was having my meal. But as soon as I went back to my room and checked facebook, I saw the personal message written on lyn si’s wall that she had passed away. Tears started to trickle down my checks. I don’t really know the reason I cry too since I was never close to her at all. However I do follow her blog where she writes about her experiences during her hospital stays. It’s just so sudden, I thought her family was collecting donations to undergo a surgery but I guess human cells are just so unpredictable.


The next morning, the first thing that came to my mind when I woke up was lyn si is gone. I kept thinking where has she gone to? how are the parents coping with the loss of their daughter? After my last paper on Thursday, nov 18th, came back and saw that lyn si’s blog was updated. It’s about her funeral; the family had taken pictures of the whole funeral and of her lying peacefully in the coffin. I cried again when I saw this, guess it’s because I am scared of dying and seeing someone of similar age with me going through this just adds to the fear.

But reading about what death is from http://www.ikedaquotes.org/life_death.html that her parents posted up calmed me down.

Her family believes in Buddhism. And I can see through her blog that Lyn Si is learning more about Buddhism in her last two years. And I guess her parents’ faith in Buddhism make the loss of their precious daughter more bearable.

Lyn si has really inspired me through her optimism and never-give-up attitude in her battle with leukemia. She made me feel that all the problems that I face are nothing compared to hers. May you rest in peace, Lyn Si.

one more to go!

hello! just a quick update of my life in brisbane..final exams season right now. 3 down, one more to go.

last week, during the study week, was a bit of an emo week for me cos' i was down with fever, flu, terrible sore throat and cough. went to the health service but wasn't prescribed any medicine, cos to them, we mustn't take antibiotics unnecessarily. so yeah, i listened to their advice and suffered that painful throat for five days (i was hoping it would get better every morning i wake up but it never did) so took the antibiotics i brought from malaysia, after 2 pills, my throat got better. gosh, should have taken it much early instead of swallowing those painkillers ( a total of more than 16! ) been coughing till my ribs hurt a few days ago but it's definitely going away soon.

luckily, i have my sis here, so i went to her place and cook fish porridge for 3 meals. IH food is totally not suitable for a sick person. i think now i can cook a very decent bowl of fish porridge, probably i would rate it 7/10=) a big thank you to all my friends who were there for me last week, i was super down last week.. and a big love to my mum who have been calling me almost every other day last week.

one more paper to go this coming thursday, 'tools of economic analysis", the tools are all maths (lotza calculus, some fancy words like Lagrange multiplier, bla bla) 5 more days! i'm not hoping for it to come sooner because i'm totally not prepared yet.

just finished my stats paper in the morning. came back lunch and was on youtube the whole afternoon and evening watching wong fu productions! just google this name if you have no idea what i'm talking about. (will blog about them more after im done with my exams, promise)

I'M IN LOVE WITH THEIR WORK! okay, maybe their cute asian faces too =)



see that guy in the middle, he's my favourite =) he looks much better in the videos.
but they're not all about good looks, seriously.

 I've been writing down a list of stuff i would love to do after exams, that's my motivation to keep me going!!

okay, going to shower and dinner soon and back to study again.. misses everyone back in malaysia!

no title for this post. hahaha

i'm supposed to write about the stuff i did during my one-week break 3 weeks ago but i'm too lazy d. so basically, i went to DFO and  Movie world!!! it was super fun, and i sat on the rides which i was afraid to ride 7 years ago when i came to aussie with my grandparents and aunt.

yeah i sat on these two rides! i was practically not sitting on the chair when the spaceshot went up!

ate some good food that week as well. i will write a food review on the food i ate next time..too lazy to upload pics =)

final exams in 3 weeks' time, macroeconomics is me crazy..time is really passing by quickly this semester.  can't wait for daddy and mummy to come! i'm thinking of home almost every other day! can't wait to be back in penang!!

Hard work paid off?

got back all my mid-semester results. they're all rather satisfactory. however, due to my kiasu-ism(or to put it in a nice way, to know where's my standard), i always compare my marks with my other coursemates. they got higher than me.

sometimes it seems unfair why a person who puts in less effort than i did got a higher mark than me..
here's one example:

she parties quite a lot, does a lot of last minute studying, seldom attends lectures, reads only the lecture notes while i did my tutorials weekly, attend lectures almost every other week, read my textbook chapters but she got a higher mark than me.

one more:

i read my textbook, make notes, attend lectures&tutorials..she did about the same thing(not the textbook part though), she kept on saying she doesn't like this subject, but ended up getting a higher mark than me.

so here's one advice that my friend gave me to make me feel better.
If you work hard, it doesn't mean you'll achieve excellent results but if you don't work hard, you'll definitely not be able to get excellent results. the point being made here is AT LEAST YOU'VE TRIED.

and i dislike comments by people like "you genius", "ahya, you don't have to be afraid of the results wanla, cos you always do so well" and when the results are good, they say "see, you guys surely get good results wan" and if results are bad, they have nothing to say already. what the heck man?! just by labelling us "genuis", all the effort we put in to achieve the results are forgotten? you don't know how much time we spent studying in order to get good results and all that we get is "ahya, u so clever,sure can wan la." i guess all these comments don't mean any harm, it's just me who is overly sensitive =).

p.s. i do use such comments at times too, but I'm trying hard not to use it because i personally think that it's rather insensitive to give such comments.

Riverfire festival

this post is way outdated.

Riverfire is one of the few big events in Brisbane. Basically it's an annual 30mins show of fireworks along the Brisbane River. went there after my first mid sem exam.

this is one of the few days in which you can see Brisbane packed with people.

all of us bought sushi rolls from the city before walking to Southbank

fireworks would only start at 7.30pm.
 it was only 5pm when we reached, so took lots of pictures.

the fireworks were much nicer than the photo. thanks to my lousy camera.

everyone smiles!!!

dinner at Madtongsan.it has been so long since we last dine in the city. we were are super 'kiam siap'
this is spicy pork hot stone rice.
the first time when i had this, it was really good but somehow it wasn't that great this time.

spicy seafood soup. this is always yummy, love the silky smooth tofu in it.

that's all for now. more food pictures to come.... going clubbing later, hahaha. guess i deserve to go this time cos it's like post-exam celebration =) and  no, i don't drink. entrance is free, so i will only spend on the bus ticket which is less than $4. I'm a good girl =)

I'm gonna have 3 mid semester exams next week..GG @.@ tuesday, wednesday and saturday

financial management with all the confusing annuity, time period

tools of economic analysis filled with my 'beloved' head-spinning mathematical stuff, Gaussian elimination, blah blah

statistics B with all the Chi-square, multi regression and the Mann-whitnay, kruskal wallis, non-parametric tests

and the worst thing is i'm still watching youtube every now plus my addiction to FB is incurable now!!

Malaysia's Independence day

so tmr is Merdeka day, public holiday in Malaysia =) bet most of you will be using this day sleeping till 12noon ( i'll be doing that if i'm back home)

i'm not really a patriotic person so why am i even writing this post?! well, i have to voice out my opinion about something related to Hari Merdeka.

i have friends in Fb writing stuff like " sang Negaraku in adelaide, fell proud but sad" and "let's sing our national anthem together tmr"

And guess what they get for their replies? "why so patriotic? if you're so patriotic, you'll be studying in malaysia and not aussie." and "are you f***ing serious? scr*** malaysia."

i really don't understand why they need to make such mean comments. if you hate malaysia so much, that's your problem. Just shut your damn mouth or migrate to other country. you don't have to stop others from expressing their love for their country.

For me, malaysia has been a place where i had a memorable childhood and great high school years. nothing much to worry about. so, i really 'pandang rendah" on all those people, they make these comments without having the thought that malaysia has actually provided them with a safe and happy place to live for so many years already.

i guess people make such comments because they are associating it with the politics in malaysia.( as in they hate all the orang besar in malaysia's political world)

malaysia is really a nice country with all it's places of attractions ( the islands, highlands..) and rich culture. it would be a great place to live in if there is less corruption( which means we need a clean fresh government), more environmental-friendly( government policy and malaysian's mind set), and lower crime rate( again this depends on the government).

Malaysia is still where my HOME is......


to those who are reading this post, i hope you are not one the brainless people who makes the nasty comments.

malaysian food for you: my favourite roti canai!!

and roti tisu

my personal favourites are the ones from Goodall Food court in Penang

(opposite PCGHS high school)

the roti canai is so so yummy and the roti tisu with banana slices is SUPERB.

i will take a photo of it when i go back to penang and post it up!